Sunday, April 29, 2012

B.E.S.T L.A.S.T S.H.O.T

3 days left..

tik, tok, tik, tok

IB exam

(3rd May 2012-18th May 2012)

"semoga Allah hantar malaikat bertanda untuk tolong each of us berjihad di medan peperiksaan"

"hanya Allah yang berkuasa menentukan segala-galanya"

Jadilah seperti Maryam. Di saat kandungan sarat, berseorangan di tengah padang pasir yang tandus,Jibril datang lantas berkata "Dan goyangkanlah pangkal kurma itu ke arahmu, nescaya pohon itu akan menggugurkan buah kurma yang masak kepada mu (19:25)". Kerana yakinnya kepada Allah Yang Satu, Maryam goyangkan pokok kurma itu walau pada logik akal pasti tidak mampu perempuan mengandung menggoyangkan pokok kurma yang besar dan sangat kukuh mencengkam bumi. Tapi siapa tahu rezeki itu turun sebaik sahaja Maryam menggoyangkan pokok kurma itu. hanya Allah yang tahu

kita juga berada di situasi itu. ketika tiada siapa yang boleh membantu, ketika masa hampir sedikit yang tinggal, ketika  terasa tidak logik mahu menghabiskan kesemua silibus pelajaran, goyanglah (berusalah)! Jadilah seperti Maryam, keyakinan yang tinggi kepada Allah sepatutnya membuahkan usaha yang berterusan. terus hingga ke saat terakhir.

 Bukan tugas kita untuk mengira panpanjang atau pendek masa yang tinggal, tapi tugas kita untuk berusaha sehabis baik kerana kita yakin Dia bersama kita.

teringat pesan murobbi:
"setiap perkara yang boleh membantu awak melaksanakn dakwah wajib dilaksanakan. jika belajar rajin-rajin bakal membantu continuity dakwah di medan itu, awak wajib untuk belajar bersungguh-sungguh"

Allah, ketaatan kepadaMu adalah alasan yang paling kuat untuk kami terus berusaha

GOYANG!!!! :D
Give Your Best Last Shot...

Monday, April 23, 2012

OMG, exam!

"minggu depan exam lah! Cuak seyh.. -_-"

"hamboih kena betul 55 per 60 baru boleh dapat 7! Memang jauh panggang dari api lah ni"

"kau takpelah mantap setiap sem, aku ni nak cecah band 6 pun hampeh" 

oh, minggu exam dah dekat, just a step ahead orang kate.. muka gelabah tak payah nak cakap lah, 24/7 boleh tengok okay.. IB kowt! semua sibuk study, LRC (Learning Resource Centre) memang penuh sampai kene duduk atas karpet celah-celah rak buku sebab tak cukup meja, jalan punye lah laju sampai ade yang sedikit kegeraman melihat junior jalan lenggang lengggok mak minah sayang..itulah latar masa dan latar masyarakat di KMB sekarang.. dan kulsem (kuliah sepuluh minit) juga semakin sikit yang datang, ops!

itulah gelagat orang nak exam.. sahabat-sahabat Rasulullah dulu ade ke macam ni?

"Alah, sahabat tak ambik IB, mane ade exam-exam ni.."

"A'ah la.. sahabat tak belajar pun Biology HL, tak kene hafal pun segala bagai nama microbes yang ntah hape-hape tu.."

erk, sahabat tak exam bertulis, tapi sahabat pergi perang! tu lah exam para sahabat.. exam yang Allah bagi, lagi mantap kowt!

rase-rasanye ade tak para sahabat gelabah macam kita bile the perang is just a step ahead?

NO, NO, and NO! Para sahabat tak gelabah sikit pun.. walau secuit, tak pernah ada perasaan menggelabah dalam diri para sahabat.. Stress? Jauh panggang dari api! Dalam buku seerah nubuwwah, tak pernah diriwayatkan pun para sahabat pernah mengalami simptom stress okay..

"para sahabat memang dah lama practice kot.. kami budak IB.. zaman sem 1,2,3 dulu sibuk sangat sampai tak sempat nak buat latihan, sebab tu lah gelabah.."

Tahu kisah perang Badar? Kamu-kamu pasti tahu sebab kamu kan budak IB yang banyak membaca tu.. Para sahabat kan diarah berperang secara TIBA-TIBA.. no preparation, no tools, nothing! Hanya Allah dan Rasulullah yang ada dengan mereka.. (Agak-agaknya kalau tibe-tibe cikgu suruh kite ambik exam esok, ape reaksi kite ye?) Tapi, para sahabat tak gelabah pun, mereka melangkah ke medan Badar dengan tenang dan yakin, kerana dalam hati mereka ada Allah.. Ya, kerana mereka yakin yang Allah pasti membantu hamba-hambaNya yang lemah..

Kita juga hamba Dia.. Kita juga lemah.. habis tu, kenapa tak depend on Allah je? *dush!*

"If Allah is all you have, you have all you need"
(3:173)

Jomlah jadi macam para sahabat! Allah pasti ada untuk kita!

move on! move on! move on.. dengan tenang, tanpa gelabah.. kerana Dia ada di samping hamab-hambaNya.. :D

Kita sedang menghadapi 2 exam sebenarnya, exam bertulis dari manusia dan exam keyakinan dari Allah.. ops! takkan nak excel satu exam je?

Saturday, April 21, 2012

2+0= 2 or 20

my adik said, i am now old teenager -_-" (pun bolehhh)

The best wish this year comes from ayah:
"Happy birthday anak ayah, rupanya dah 20 tahun sekarang, semoga kakak sentiasa jadi hambaNya yang sentiasa berada dalam rahmatNya, insyaAllah"

Jzkkk ayahh ;) *touched*

umi ayah, semoga kakak dapat umi ayah yang sama di jannah nanti..
*sobs-rindu*



footnote: the last post about my journey.. Blog sayang, for my 20th birthday, saya infaq kan awak untuk ummah.. *lambai-lambai kat blog sayang*

kaitann tajuk: 2 tahun hidup dalam tarbiyyah, 20 tahun hidup di atas muka bumi.. ;D

Friday, April 13, 2012

thank you, thank you, thank you..

:D
thank you for coming
I know all of you love and always miss me kann.. hee
me is missing all of you too
ayah umi sayang saya sampai angah jelous.. =p

i'm waiting for my upcoming birthday presents from y'all okay
:)


I'm sorry,
for not being a good daughter,
for not being a good sister,
for being 'anak nakal' to umi and ayah
for always menyusahkan umi and ayah (hehs, sory paksa umi ayah fikir masalah kakak)
for always being serious with angah, kak cik and ain
for not spending much time to help adik hafaz quran
for all the things I did wrongly 

above all,
I LOVE Y'ALL
(i'm the only one yang paling jarang duk rumah kan- random thought)

for once,
I asked Allah,
why He didn't let me to grow up in tarbiyyah-ed family
such an ungrateful hamba kan..
But, HE shows me the answer..
because He wants me to start knowing Him together with my parents
(umi, nanti kakak cari handsock yang umi nak eh)
(ayah, nanti kakak balik kite same-same ajak angah, kakcik, ain, adik kenal Allah ye)

O Allah,
please let us to gather again in your jannah
:D
we love you, Allah...





Friday, April 6, 2012

sikit je lagi..

life in this dunya is too short
don't drag yourself with all the despair that you feel
sikit je lagi..
Allah is waiting at the finishing line of your dunya life
move on, move on, move on..

it's okay if people doesn't know your ups and down
He is looking at you
and He lift ur weight
so that you will not feel the burden

He is here,
near to you..
feel His presence and you'll be fine

:)
Allah, I know I will be fine with you eventough how hard my life seems

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Have we changed?

assalamualaikum readers :D
alhamdulillah dapat menulis lagi
I always hope to write each life moment left here in KMB
I loved to, but I can't make it right now for due to time constraint (IB would never let us having leisure time, haha)

It had been almost 2 years I studied here. I just don't notice it for this while but the end time of being an IB student is just around the corner. Actually I'm about to say that I'm gonna sit for the IB exam in less than I month time. There were so many things happened to me, to you, to them.. each one of us had shifted ourselves while studying here. I know that everyone had changed (even just a little changing, it's still changing) Even me myself had changed, I'm dare to say this.

we changed because we had been tarbiyyah-ed. we changed for the sake of Allah. we changed to be a better person in Allah's view. Somehow, after we changed, we acknowledged ourselves as 'good person'. Yes, we are good person to be compared to the old us. At this new point, we started to complain about the bad things about others. So many questions arose. Yes, we always said that we complaint as a reflection to us. As I see, we always complaint something that we don't agree at.

We are actually thinking TOO much! Who are us to judge other person? Yes, we had changed but it doesn't mean that we can complaint others easily, it doesn't mean that we are always in the correct path, and it doesn't mean that THEY are all wrong! We can think as a reflection to us, but don't ever think too much just to find others' mistakes because everyone make mistake, including you and me.

This is just a thing to ponder, We had changed to be a better person, but it doesn't mean we are the BEST person. Changing is not happen once in a lifetime. Changing happen so many things, we are actually to decide how many times we want to change in our life to be a 'good-better-best' person. So, don't feel so good for we had drastically changed once because others had changed so many-many times just to satisfy Allah. You know, just don't have bad perception on others just because they didn't changed YET. They maybe had changed without we noticed, they maybe will change more than we had changed, they may be a better person in Allah's view, who knows right? We are just a human-being, we don't know who are us in Allah's view. What we can do is just try our best to be the best person in Allah's view.

What to do next?
For me, I would continue my life. Not because I love my life, but I live because Allah let me live and I live to satisfy Allah. Strong reason for me facing each second of my life, even it will be very hard.

Just move on people, think of all signs of the presence of Allah, BUT don't think TOO much about something that can't make us closer to Allah because we are just His slave.



footnote: I just write what I feel, it may be wrong (correct me if i'm wrong)  this is just a thought of mine, that's all.