- math portfolio
- oral english
- tok presentation
- preparation Saya Hebat (SH)
i was dissolved in those IB stuff, I didnt sleep almost every night just because of those IB stuffs, and almost every second i thought of them as I only got 24/7, not 36/7 or any addition hours for this week.
somehow, all at once I wondered of how could I devote myself to IB? I'm not a robot, I'm not a superhuman, but I'm a slave of Allah (and I'm proud of it!) Were my activities did picture myself as the tittle that I put on myself (hamba Allah) ? ok, killing myself right now!
another thing I learnt through tarbiyyah directly from Allah, 'rely on Allah and everything gotta be fine'
i have to repeat my ToK presentation (it should be next year, i guess).. prior to the presentation, I already told myself, 'just do it, Allah will help me for the rest...' I hold on my faith in Allah, seriously I felt I was! at long last, everything doesnt work, and another presentation have to be made later (by hook or by crook, unless I don't want the IB Diploma).. frustration overhelmed me.. How come i could let it be, as I practice all night, alone! I forced myself to leave the frustration behind, I TRIED MUCH! and, I ask Allah for some strength to face this failure, and deep inside, I believe He will help me in any ways, I know that..
then it came, He was comforting me, y'know? (dont get to be jealous, people! hoho)
He sent a friend of mine, giving me a kit kat and motivated me for sure.. I was not sooth by his words, but i'm sooth much for the way Allah was comforting me.. so sweet okay?
therefore, I realize that I need to just go on.. never think of the obstacles I might face later, because He is always be by my side..
much love to my till-the-last-breath-hero, Allah... :)