I easily stress myself out recently

just by words, some actions and random photos





I keep running away from everything
get myself busy with medicine


find a reason to smile through patient's words





life is tough
emotionally, emotionally, emotionally,
mentally and physically




since I was kid
ayah taught me to have a dream

and I did

I have many dreams hehe

but I always forget the continuation of ayah's advice;

"but remember, when u hike to the top, maybe just another few steps to reach your dream, you might fall and it hurts. So, dream but don't feel comfortable reaching the endpoint"

this is my second time falling

shattered apart, pieces everywhere

when I was 16

breaking is pain

but I have ayah umi to put myself together again

but for now

I'd only myself

arwah Ki once said,

"Bila terbang tinggi jangan lupa rumput di bawah"

takde kena mengena pun

but his wise words keep playing in my mind

maybe I fall

just so I remember Him

cause I dont want to lose Him